I know what you're all thinking..."ugh here we go again, another rant about your failing love life?"
That's probably not what you're thinking actually, I'm clearly too mean to myself.
But no, this will not be a rant.
I'm tired of that.
Instead I shall try to turn the tables and have an appreciative post, enjoying the benefits of my love drought.
Yeah you heard me, love drought
My new name for my love life because my love life is dryer than the Sahara dessert at the moment.
My new name for my love life because my love life is dryer than the Sahara dessert at the moment.
I feel like I'm going to get bombarded with people saying "remember you don't need a boyfriend to be happy" after posting this and all I have to say is, believe me I know, I've spent months trying to drill that thought into my thick skull and finally I truly understand that true happiness, comes from within.
I know... I'm Gandhi af.
To be honest I'm still not sure whether I actually want to be in a relationship or just like the idea of it, eh..i don't know and I have no actual way of finding it out unless I spend a good long hour thinking about it and then again I probably wouldn't get a clear answer, just smoke coming from my brain and probably brain damage.
Instead of making a list (WHICH I SEEM TO DO REGULARLY ON MY BLOG POSTS BTW) lets have a discussion, what are the positives of being single?
Well, for me even when I'm not in a relationship and just have a crush, I turn into a demon I get jealous, insecure and paranoid and then when I'm actually in a relationship, all of that behaviour gets ENHANCED..its all just..no thanks.
That kind of stress, for me especially since I'm pretty psychotic is NOT.NEEDED so for now I'll embrace my stress free life.
Lets elaborate on the insecurity, I'll admit when I do get into relationships, instead of being chill and enjoying the relationship, I obsess and focus on if I'm pretty enough and worry if anyone is going to steal the guy I'm dating.
Its annoying really, its like a subconscious thought in my head constantly saying
"This girl likes your boyfriend, he's going to start liking her back. DO SOMETHING"
"You look gross today, he's going to leave you"
"Don't put your hair in a ponytail, it makes your forehead look too big, he'll think its ugly"
Yeah.. it also doesn't help that I see
"GOALS"
"RELATIONSHIP GOALS <333333"
plastered everywhere, I'll start getting upset wishing I was prettier, to match my pretty boyfriend
Constant comparison will destroy you.
I DONT KNOW HOW BUT SOMEHOW EVERY COUPLE IN THOSE DAMN "RELATIONSHIP GOALS" PICTURES ARE GORGEOUS AF, I WANNA KNOW THEIR SECRET.
Moving on, what else is good about being single?
Oh yeah, the freedom, the liberation, the fact you could go to a club and marry 3 different people without bae getting mad.
Wait is that even legal?
Oh well, you could do it anyway because you are single.
Also no relationship=no fear of heartbreak
YES. THATS PROBABLY THE BEST PART.
..Wow.. in this huge babble I've only listed like 3 positives...OH WELL
I know I kinda just rambled but I did try to make this like my old funnier posts, I hope you liked it.
And in all seriousness, I do constantly try and look at the positives of being single, I'm only 16 I have a long time to find a boyfriend but sometimes I do wish I had someone to give meh the cuddles *cough* DAN HOWELL *cough*
Its not always fun being single but hey,
if you can enjoy it and walk the earth with a "idgaf about dating" attitude
then you my friend, are an artist
;)
P.S: This post was somewhat inspired by this video by Buzzfeed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNWiTXGM5-w
And this is one of my favourite posts to read, it is by Jon Cozart/Paint
http://joncozart.tumblr.com/post/14007267327/why-i-want-a-girlfriend
It pretty much breaks down why he wants a girlfriend (which I think he has now) but it also draws similarities to why I want a boyfriend.
Enjoy.
To be honest I'm still not sure whether I actually want to be in a relationship or just like the idea of it, eh..i don't know and I have no actual way of finding it out unless I spend a good long hour thinking about it and then again I probably wouldn't get a clear answer, just smoke coming from my brain and probably brain damage.
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| I'll just be confused for the time being |
Well, for me even when I'm not in a relationship and just have a crush, I turn into a demon I get jealous, insecure and paranoid and then when I'm actually in a relationship, all of that behaviour gets ENHANCED..its all just..no thanks.
That kind of stress, for me especially since I'm pretty psychotic is NOT.NEEDED so for now I'll embrace my stress free life.
Lets elaborate on the insecurity, I'll admit when I do get into relationships, instead of being chill and enjoying the relationship, I obsess and focus on if I'm pretty enough and worry if anyone is going to steal the guy I'm dating.
Its annoying really, its like a subconscious thought in my head constantly saying
"This girl likes your boyfriend, he's going to start liking her back. DO SOMETHING"
"You look gross today, he's going to leave you"
"Don't put your hair in a ponytail, it makes your forehead look too big, he'll think its ugly"
Yeah.. it also doesn't help that I see
"GOALS"
"RELATIONSHIP GOALS <333333"
plastered everywhere, I'll start getting upset wishing I was prettier, to match my pretty boyfriend
Constant comparison will destroy you.
I DONT KNOW HOW BUT SOMEHOW EVERY COUPLE IN THOSE DAMN "RELATIONSHIP GOALS" PICTURES ARE GORGEOUS AF, I WANNA KNOW THEIR SECRET.
Moving on, what else is good about being single?
Oh yeah, the freedom, the liberation, the fact you could go to a club and marry 3 different people without bae getting mad.
Wait is that even legal?
Oh well, you could do it anyway because you are single.
Also no relationship=no fear of heartbreak
YES. THATS PROBABLY THE BEST PART.
..Wow.. in this huge babble I've only listed like 3 positives...OH WELL
I know I kinda just rambled but I did try to make this like my old funnier posts, I hope you liked it.
And in all seriousness, I do constantly try and look at the positives of being single, I'm only 16 I have a long time to find a boyfriend but sometimes I do wish I had someone to give meh the cuddles *cough* DAN HOWELL *cough*
Its not always fun being single but hey,
if you can enjoy it and walk the earth with a "idgaf about dating" attitude
then you my friend, are an artist
;)
P.S: This post was somewhat inspired by this video by Buzzfeed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNWiTXGM5-w
And this is one of my favourite posts to read, it is by Jon Cozart/Paint
http://joncozart.tumblr.com/post/14007267327/why-i-want-a-girlfriend
It pretty much breaks down why he wants a girlfriend (which I think he has now) but it also draws similarities to why I want a boyfriend.
Enjoy.
I feel you on such a deep level! These "couple goals" posts are just waayyy too exaggerated. And I'm with you about all that happiness thing that comes from within. But I also catch myself daydreaming about having a boyfriend so...
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I've just discovered your blog and I love it!! Have a nice day :)
Haha! I daydream about it too, way too much! I'm glad you could relate to the post because at some points I felt like I was just talking nonsense xD and thank you! You too! :)
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